Morning Gratitude Day 91-2018: Hope Rises
Watching the sunrise this morning reminded me that hope rises. As I sat in bed watching the sunrise, I thought about where my life was about ten years ago. I was fighting desperately to find something to light a fire in me. I was no longer hearing God, and for the first time, I felt bitter.
I felt angry at everyone, including myself. I had shown every vulnerability I had to someone who was special to me. Rob and I struggled amid my health crisis. This person not only let me down, but she also tried to ruin me. In desperation, I sat and wrote my statement of courage. I was determined to rise again.
Just a Mustard Seed
Even though all hope seemed gone, I did have enough remnants of faith to get help. I learned what support was and what it wasn’t. I learned that I could not forget about the little inside of me I blamed for things she had no power over. I thought I loved myself, but I didn’t. You can’t love part of you and live in alignment with your purpose.
Hope Rises Even From the Dumps of Despair
I have made some significant transformation in my life, but this one was even more life-altering than my mother’s death. You can’t love God if you don’t love yourself — it’s the same as loving a part you — it’s impossible. God gave me grace through understanding. When someone understands you, hope rises and renews your faith.
My Morning Gratitude
I am grateful today that hope defies gravity. When you seem to have nothing at all, hang to whatever shred of hope you have left. It will drag you from the depth of despair and give your pain meaning.
We all go through trials and pain — it’s unavoidable. There is purpose in everything even pain. Gratitude was the flashlight that allowed me to find meaning in suffering and even then, my blessings multiplied. It brought my family closer. Yes, I can sit here and list everything we’ve accomplished during our trials. It is a laundry list of things. The most significant gift of all is being part of a that can shut out haters and concentrate on living a purposeful, productive life.
Happy Easter! Be grateful and live your purpose!
xoxo
Jowanna
