“There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you.”
– Dr. Maya Angelou
This quote hits very close to home. When I read this quote, I think of bottled-up secrets. I remember as a child when my mom would tell me that I was in trouble. Most of the time I knew why. There were times that I may have violated a few rules, and even if I did not get caught the secret would become unbearably uncomfortable–day and night.
Why does an untold story bear so much agony?
- It leads to the anxiety and fear of being found out.
- It leads to other lies.
- It causes sleepless nights.
- It makes you sick.
The other day I bared part of my soul to my therapist. I shared something with her that I have been holding inside of me for quite some time. It felt great to say it out loud. It also revealed unbearable guilt that I still felt. The only thing she told me was that I need to forgive myself. I am not quite sure I am there—but I did sleep better that night.